Tuesday, November 30, 2004
feeling so hyper today.hyper hyper hyper.bunny hyper! heh.blogger's a little laggy.but diaryland is LAGGY! see the difference? LAGGY LAGGY LAGGY! i think im mad because jayne just drove me mad online.how can anyone drive anyone mad online? it must be a new world record! can't wait til the cpf people send the cheque.den i can buy new phone.yay! X)
posted @5:31 PM
"Gravity"
Honey, It's been a long time coming
And I can't stop now
Such a long time running
And I can't stop now
Do you hear my heart beating
Can you hear that sound
Cause I can't stop thinking
And I don't look down
And then I looked up at the sun
And I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me
And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun
And the way that gravity pulls on everyone, on everyone
Baby, It's been a long time waiting
Such a long, long time
And I can't stop smiling
No I can't stop now
And do you hear my heart beating
Ah can you hear that sound
Cause I can't help crying
And I won't look down
And then I looked up at the sun and I could see
Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me
And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky
And the way that gravity pulls on you and I, on you and I
Can you hear my heart beating
Can you hear that sound
Cause I can't help crying
And I wont look down
posted @5:24 PM
Friday, November 26, 2004
why am i always the last of all your piorities? fuck you.
posted @12:33 PM
What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow I cant let go
When will this night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
posted @12:17 PM
Monday, November 15, 2004
i seriously have no idea what i have against girls' school's girls.whenever i see them, or at least a group i can't bear to look at, running all over town in their school uniforms.think, over-sized white blouse with a gold-dark blue badge and skirts altered so short they might as well just wear fbt-s to school.if you don't know which school im talking about.just look the next time you're at town on a weekday.i'd would hurl insults at them until they stare and roll their eyes to me.i'll do the same back too, thats all i ever learnt when i was studying in a fucking all girls' school, to be the
elite bitch.i don't think i'll be saying the same if i was still in there, but then again im glad im not, im doing very fine in the neighbourhood school im studying in.thank you very much.
just look at them.
see how different we would be looked at when we're standing next to them, not just in town.
anywhere.
how we are being labeled as ah lians or ah bengs maybe even deliquents, just because some of us can't show good mannerisms? or is it because we speak singlish or maybe even hokkien? we don't go to top shop or zara just to get a top.and not all of us labeled ah lians thinks paris hilton is FRIKKIN HAWWTT.half of us likes jolin tsai the other half likes jay chou.and what now? you girls are going to choke us because we dont like britney? we get our shoes from beach road and you get yours from town, and even sometimes queensway is way to pricey for us.candice,whoever you are.stop being a porn star.my friend thinks you're sexy because you lifted your skirt up.im not saying everybody in my school is that like.majority are, and they are and always will proud of who they are.no matter what.some of us came from girl school backgrounds just like them, we never saw ourselves studying in a neighbourhood school.we never ever wanted to.we actually outcasted these schools by saying how loser it would be if anyone of us would get into a school like that after the postings.well, guess what 6.2 01'? i did.im the loser.im that pathetic loser whose enjoying every moment of my secondary school life with real people.not hand painted porcelain dolls.the difference between us and you elite bitches is that all of you are shallow, you only see how the outside appeals to you.and when all of you fall you'll all break like porcelain dolls.
posted @2:23 AM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
jayne! i love you too! ((: okay okay, if i don't stop telling everybody how much we love each other i think this can go on for forever.haha.
anyways, walked past school last night and i swear i saw a ramp in school, at the basketball court then i looked and i saw a few people riding bikes around school and over the ramp that almost hit on the rubbish bin near the female toliet it nearly gave me a heart and attack but i prevented it by swearing my ass off.what are these people in bikes who call themselves bikers when they're just people that ride bicycles doing in my school so late flying over a fcuking ramp? i love my school even though i say it's a shit hole all the time, its actually just my alter ego.(: heh.
had a super boring saturday, woke up at 11 then i watched tv until 4 something then i went to shower then i went to church.how boring can that be? please somebody, anybody ask me out.i'll go with you even if you wanted to go to jb just to eat seafood.really.(:
oh yeah, back to jayne.we can go shopping anytime, i don't even mind if we do it everyday.haha
posted @8:48 PM
Friday, November 12, 2004
jayne: hello jayne. just felt like dedicating a whole post to youu! (: sorry.i don't think im very sane at the moment.heh.anyways, you have always been my best friend, since sec one.we had our minor arguments and major
MAJOR fights guess we've really been through it all.but those days are all over nowadays we solve our arguments like adults.haha.i don't really know what im talking about.please nod your head if you don't understand, when you nod.tell me.heh.i still remember all those really fun times we had together.grading people's fashion sense, looking at cute guys, bitch about girls' schools, shopping, trying on clothes, we do almost everything together.((: oh yesssss.and not forgetting.hundreds and thousands of neoprints we took together convincing ourselves that we will always be the best looking girls in the world.haha.mm, im sure you'll get into cjc dearie, don't stress yourself too much with your dad's expectations yeah? im sure you'll do fine.you're graduating next year! we've already been best friends for three years,three whole years.that's fast.too fast.thanks for all the times you stood up for me and stood by me supporting me all the time, at times i may be arrogant and ignorant but you always manage to pull me back to reality.i'm sorry if sometimes i say things that might have hurt you, i'll take everything that i said that was spikeful back.i would really miss you when you're gone.thank you jayne.(:
this is the fifth post.dedicated to jayne obviously.there's four other posts down there.just scroll down yeah?
posted @3:58 AM
dear you,
knew you were pretty pissed at me on wednesday because i came late, then being so indecisive about where to go, what to do.but you kept quiet.i'm sorry, i really am.when you were tired you still had to tolerate me, i thought we were going to fight that night.seriously, i was pretty... i don't know.scared? sad? i don't know.it's a whole combination of different feelings i guess.its already friday i hope im not apologising too late.
it's really nice when we just sit down and talk.brings us together a whole lot closer.really.((:
thursday's already over baby, hope you're feeling better today.today's a different day.
suddenly.
i can't stop smiling.
darn.
symptoms of pms #01
extreme mood swings.
BAHHHHHHHHHHH.
is this the fourth entry already? or is this the third?
posted @3:26 AM
fuck, shit.it's already bloody hell two foury-five in the morning, and im still not sleeping.even if i do go to bed.i can't sleep.why why why? urgh.never blogged so much in one day.haha.i kept blogging because i can't sleep and there's 9 people i don't know online.franklin's online.he's probably watching soccer.BAHH.
posted @2:45 AM
Here I am beside myself again.
I'm torn apart by words that you have said.
And all in all,I know we're falling apart.
Where did you run to so far away?
Here we are to sing you a song.
There you are asleep against the window pane just like always.
You said you like to hear the rain sometimes.
And all I can do is tell you the truth.
And oh, my eyes will tell you the same.
Here we are to sing you a song.
There you are asleep again.
Grasp our hands together,we feel we are one result.
And here we are to sing you a song.
And there you are asleep again.
posted @2:07 AM
bahh.felt like a complete idiot today, i should have just kept quiet and not ask a thing.damn it.i don't even know if in other words whether it means i just stay out of his problems, or maybe he thinks im nosy.either that or im just fucking sensitive.well, but i could always comfort myself by saying i caught him at the wrong moment.no,really.im really just sensitve.
posted @1:40 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
if i just spend one more minute facing pink coloured walls in this house.i swear i will go crazy.that is exactly why i go out almost everyday or i sleep the entire day away.
anyways, sorry about not linking you guys yeah? i always screw up my links.(:
posted @12:48 PM
Monday, November 08, 2004
dear you,
how are you today?
i've got a million things inside my head i want to say,
i haven't seen you for days.
im starting to get use to this.
i hate it when you leave me,
but you always leave me smiling.
its a bitter sweet feeling
if you know what i mean.
i miss your smile,
and the way you talk to me.
i miss how you would always make me smile
when i frown,
i miss how you mess my hair,
when its wet.
please dont cut your hair.
i miss the way you look at me,
i love it when you do that.
i miss holding your hand
im really sorry,
i have sweaty palms,
blame it on my dad.
i miss the times when,
we would walk around town
arm in arm.
i was really tired,
i had to tip toe.
but i don't care.
i miss the hugs you gave me,
when im cold.
cos im never scared.
i miss the way you would always,
kiss me when you leave.
there's so many more things i forget to say.
i miss youu.
thank you for being there.(:
posted @6:25 PM
